The Struggle of Being Young, Ambitious and Lazy..
It's been a while since I've written a proper blog post. I've posted here and there but it's mostly been video posts which is honestly my way of lazily updating the blog. (In shorter terms, I'm just really disappointed in myself)
Your early 20s seem to be the most exciting and scary time of your life. It is the first time that you start to feel the true weight of being an adult. Yeah, you're still young and can get away with a lot but it isn't the same "getting away" that it used to be. Consequences seem to be a lot harsher and dramatic and it definitely has you walking on egg shells more than any other time in your life.
Life seemed a whole lot sweeter when I began this blog. I swore that it would be an instant hit and I'd reap the benefits of being a successful blogger overnight. Boy was I wrong... LOL. Blogging isn't just sitting down and writing your life away on a computer. It stems from passion. My passion of beauty and helping others was the life that this blog needed and with some convincing and a little help from my dad I finally launched vicmram.com.
To be completely honest with you, as I reflect on the entire site I can't help but love the pink aesthetic and simple but modern design but I don't see the passion I have for all of the subjects I'm supposed to be writing about in consistency. I see a spark here and there but I don't see the full potential. And I can't help but feel like I'm disappointing the very same people who sat and waited for so long for this blog to finally come to life.
I can sit and mope... But I won't. Cause at the end of the day I'm still 20 and I realized my lack of consistency early on. But at the same time the thought of success, and failure to be successful scares the living daylights out of me! And in this fear stems my little worst enemy, that little voice in your head that tells you to stop wasting your time and move on to the next thing. What's even scarier is when there isn't anything else to move on to... But this is when I realize that this is my absolute passion. It is in this deep dark place where I realize that if I can't imagine what else to move on to, this is the path I must continue to walk along.
So tonight, I've made a promise to myself and to all of you. I promise to exude the very same passion I have for all things life on to this blog and the rest of my outlets. I am excited to get back on my feet and share what I know, find interesting and also learn from all of you. It's time to get back to my roots! And also, thank you for all of your continual support and love!